Friday, July 29, 2005

Thursday, July 28, 2005

juz as i expected,wed is boring!!! maths lesson is e onli time i enjoy myself. hear some stupid lame jokes from foo foo. n thru out e whole maths lesson,bout half of e time slackin... n learn some short forms?? mklk... mml...
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tis few days,reali feel quite happy... is life in control in ur hands? to mi i think i can control my life. choose e rite path n choose to b happy or sad. n i can say,i finaly choose e rite path. start to look forward to my future. life is not tt easy as it seems to b. but mayb we shld try to take it easy n do our best in everythin. after our A lvl,wad will life b liked?somehow afraid of thinkin bout it,mayb we will get separated. haiz... those times we went thru together,happy or sad... everythin...all i hope is tt we can keep in contact no matter wad. frens r forever!! cheers!!
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if u ever read tis,i juz wan u to noe tt u r e person wastin ur own time! no one ask u to cum n look for mi cos u juz wan someone to b by ur side. i m nt e one. think bout wad u did 3 yrs ago? believe in retribution? is time... dun ever complain,cos u spoil ur own future. no one can save it. u cant too. so juz face it.
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hao ke ai... hao ke ai....



Wednesday, July 27, 2005

haiz... tml is wed... e most boring day of e week... :(
so tired tis few days... after enjoyin life last weekend... now i haf no energy left... slp in sch everyday...
n today i played wif those tadpole in sch pond. n i was being accused by cis tt i killed some of them... hmm... i juz touch them la... nv squeeze them or wad. so none of them died k?
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haiz... tis few days get to see some true faces of my class ppl. disappointed... but tt's e real world... somehow gt veri tired of seein those things. sch is so sianz... but i m tryin to enjoy it...
juz hope tt some ger dun always appear in front of mi. i dun like tt type of gers la... no use attractin my attention. btw... i m straight... haha....
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hopin to see u everyday! wahaha... hao ke ai...
cuter den cis's gia gia... n more man den her penguin...
CIS,i won....



Sunday, July 24, 2005

e 2nd time watchin fireworks tis yr... unepectedly... n finally wif diff ppl...stil cant hlp rememberin e last 2 times... but i managed to block them away from mi... juz hope tt in e future,everythin will b better.

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i was readin some msn conversation tt i saved. n found out tt so much things haf changed. after readin all those conversations,i found out some things tt i had nv notice. n i hope tt now,it is not too late ba. somethin when u expect somethin to happen,it juz wont follow ur wish. but when u haf already forgotten bout it,tis things will start to appear again.

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wahaha... tml is monday!!! yesh!!!

Saturday, July 23, 2005

is friday finally... after one week of torture in sch... finally gets to enjoy...
went to Trans' hse to play... cis went to swim n i juz sit there look at them... feel like jumping into e pool n swim wif them... ahhhh....at nite went to airport,my hk fren is cumin to s'pore,for juz one day. haha... too rich i think...
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n e most impt thing of e day... finally i dare to tel my cis n trans bout my big secret... hard to keep it la... somehow i like to share happiness wif them... at 1st was quite worried tt cis will b angry,but my cis is so considerate. she told mi tt i shld follow my heart or somethin. but juz dun fall too deep into it. muz haf some self control. yeah... phew...now i feel so much 'lighter' when i told them bout it. it had been such a long time since someone tease mi bout somethin.n i love to tease cis bout muscular penguin!!
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is like a dream. from tt day onwards. n i dunno y. but tt reali makes mi happy. n i hope tis feelin will accompany mi forever. i wan to b happy,n i hope ppl ard mi will b happy too. esp someone. always see him feelin sad,but juz dunno y. i hope i can hlp,but... i dunno how... n i m nt e one who can make him happy. i m nt tt someone. juz hope tt he can find somethin to cheer himself up.




Friday, July 22, 2005

even if is nt tokin bout mi,is ok... i m happy.tt's e little secret of mine.
i m lookin forward to sch,every chances to get to see u...
but few more months away is our A lvl... n after tt,we'll b leaving sr... is tt e end of everythin?
erm.. i m waitin for A lvl to cum... n end asap...
or else i muz keep it inside mi forever... look ahead... n i see u standin in front... ya... u...
thanx for making mi happy... i m a happy little shortie now...
mayb u dunno it,but is ok... it is always better to noe less...



Thursday, July 21, 2005

gt a new song for my blog.... Fan yi chen's Piano...argh...i cant find tt rong zhu er's song...
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today went out early in e mornin. 1st time so early. chat bout quite alot wif lion n gt to hear views from a different perspective. he is e 1st person who tel mi bout somethin i dunno. wake mi up even more.
actualli... i m stil a little stubborn inside...
cant rmb how long haf tis been. juz hope tt it will fade asap.
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:D
today is a tired but happy day... life sux but we gt to face it. jia you ba....



Wednesday, July 20, 2005

trans' birthday.
had lots of fun today altho is onli a small celebration. so glad tt trans like e present i choose. er...mayb she dun dare to tel mi she dun like?
today is tuesday!! another favourite day... :) reason is simple... observe it if u can.
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I M NOT A TOY.
nt someone who is always there to let ppl take or leave it whenever they like it.
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i m a happy person now. so pls dun worry bout mi k? thanx to ppl who reali care. ppl who r juz actin, hope u will wake up someday n b true!



Tuesday, July 19, 2005

after giving rubbish in my last entry,i shld write somethin meaningful. shldnt haf waste space writin rubbish. oppsss... wad m i tokin about??
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monday... i like monday. short n relax. i juz love e 2 periods of phy lecture. haha.... cant imagine someone like mi will love phy lecture so much rite? there's some reasons behind... winkwink...
reali shld try to like everythin u r doin,or else life is so dull..... but suddenly life for mi seems so much better... after everythin n time i haf wasted. sometimes u haf to take a wrong step b4 u get to wake up.
i love sch so much now. :D full of motivations n laughter n everythin. muz treasure it cos we r onli left wif 4 months or so? or mayb lesser... erm... muz treasure everythin b4 u lose it. haiz...i doubt someone noe it. but after A lvl,i will tel him somethin...somethin tt i kept for dunno how long. but i reali treasure everyday in sch now. so precious to mi!!!
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i love my life now. free from worries sorrow n eveythin bad. all thanx to my family frens myself n some ppl. my mum said,when u get to see clearly,u'll b able to let go of everythin cos is nt worth it. ya. not worth it.btw i m lookin forward to my birthday! nv look back!
my birthday... rmb to get mi present hor... my birthday wish is... i hope tt i can take neo print wif someone. who? i dun wanna tel u leh... bleah...
tml is my dearest trans' birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR TRANS. i love u forever my dear. hope she will read tis... :D



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