Saturday, January 20, 2007

no more entry in this place

dont talk about me in one whole group and make assumptions.



Thursday, January 18, 2007

today is the worst day. the most unhappy day.
for me i thought what i did is because of care. but in fact it is irritating.

sorry



Wednesday, January 17, 2007

it is really time to lower expectation. give myself a breaaak.

ah...ah shao ye so cute so sweet!
punch chest point you.

high expectation leads to a greater fall. dont feel like expecting much nowadays because in return it is always disappointment. but is ok. everything still lies in my cosine graph.

surprisingly i m still not used to school life. although i love to see my dears. but something is just missing. school makes me think a lot. not academic stuff. hmmmm. must get into the working mode as soon as possible i know.

something is really lacking in my life. what's that i dont know.

my phone is always dead. sometimes a simple sms will show simple care. i need honesty too.

are you willing to give up or are you willing to give in?



Sunday, January 14, 2007

something is very wrong now. even if i m not doing anything, i will still be sitting in front of my computer, just stare hard at the screen. cannot remember how is it like when there is no computer at home.
i used to go out every weekend,feel very 'fulfilling'. limited time to do work,but i was happy. somehow i miss those times when we cherish our weekends. my weekends had gone to waste.
suddenly thought of hanging out at bedok everyday after school. i m always full of energy to hang out with people i like.

my plan now is to make full use of my weekends. play hard, work hard. i get happy very easily.
hope the rainy season will be over soon. i want to go beaches with my mao and cute! blading with my isomers. love them all!

:D ping i love you!!!

rome sent me a 4E1 contact list. my index number was 8! brought back a lot of memories. and kanghong's name is there too. how i hope i can go back to sec school days.

dont talk to me about money. i m not interested for now. cant you see i m very unhappy with you? want to borrow money from bank? ask the bank for info not me. how irritating and naive can someone gets? of course i know what you want. but dont get it from me.

i know he is good to me and of couse i know it well. even if i m biased,i m happy with it. i m not a 3year old kid anymore. i m happy with my boy ok?

sorry i m being nasty again. ignore you ignore me.



Friday, January 12, 2007

the girl you are looking at is my sister. kid! dont you remember?



Thursday, January 11, 2007

we have a new teacher for 4D. a friendly old lady who looks like our granny. feel quite lucky to have her as our teacher. hope i wont fall asleep in 4D class again.

talk about some normal things. weather is bad nowadays so everyone take care ok? drink more water and sleep more. sleep is very important. you need 12 hours (or more) of sleep everyday,hmmm dont know is it true for other people,but to me ya i need alot of sleep.

can be better. want to be better.

reading this book that i bought. very meaningful and somehow it teaches me alot. i m learning.

i have to say...i m not pessimistic. i think alot but not all are unhappy stuff.

回来了,累死了.
埋怨多多,凡是人都会是这样吗?
我埋怨假期没事做,开学又太忙. 反省一下,觉得自己很无聊.
到底我们想要些什么? 可能我也不知道. 只懂得一直往前走.
不可以停留,也不可以回头看.

boyfriend/girlfriend is not a job. there's nothing as part timer or full timer.

千金娃娃 和 小凤妹妹. 两个一样的可怜.

i miss shao ye



Monday, January 08, 2007

pain everywhere.
appreciate or leave it.
inside me, dead.

finally i know that i m not important at all. AT ALL.
how sad. right?
feel really sad. when i tried my best to change myself,people take things for granted. most of the people. i deserve all that?

never take things for granted. at least i wont.

Sunday, January 07, 2007

anger/sadness... overwhelming emotions.
why look for me and say such things? after so long. why not move on?
i dont know. but i m so damn disappointed in you. set everyone free please.

it was the 1st time,finally... i said everything i want to say. whatever shit that i got from you,i m returning it to you. i cant hide it anymore,i m really pissed off and disappointed in you. i thought i should be nice. hah. i m wrong. go and dream of whatever thing u want to dream of.

shit. i hate it.



Saturday, January 06, 2007

爱在这个年代/世纪已经变了样. 有些人会为了利益,而跟一个人在一起. 没有真正的爱. 这样快乐吗? 可悲.
所以...珍惜眼前人 :) 难得.

迷上了 "千金百分百",林韦君好漂亮!
20岁人了,还沉迷偶像剧,而且还是超无聊的. 不过我就是一个容易感动的家伙.

搞成这样,谁也不想...

我讨厌他欺负我的姐妹! 真是气死我了!

他寂寞时,需要陪伴时,总是找你. 你处处为他着想,但是他却伤害了你.
感情不该要求回报,我知道. 但是为何不说清楚? 而且又给人错的讯息?

说是我们误会了,好.
但为什么我们会误会呢?
真得无法忍受他这么做!

就是讨厌这些人!
dont want commitment then just get lost. 搞什么暧昧? 臭男人! 伤害了人又不管. 顺手就好.
这是什么世界!?



Friday, January 05, 2007

why are there such childish people? always creating trouble, but regret in the end.

身边常常有一些对自己很好的人,但往往我们只会记得曾对我们不好的人.
被他们伤害过,才知道谁是值得我们去珍惜.
没得计较那么多. 我们连珍惜都不够.
坐下来仔细想,为何有时会把不开心的事忘记?
有人说记得比忘记容易. 那忘记它,何尝不是件好事.

my cosine graph. negative value. unimportant.

mum's birthday on saturday. want to give her a surprise :)

http://dyingis.blogspot.com/
mao showed me this.
think positively and be happy :)



Thursday, January 04, 2007

admiring him. more and more each day.
high tolerance,high resistance and high voltage.
我梦到摩天轮.

他满怀希望,但我们知道,没希望了.



Wednesday, January 03, 2007

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

is a brand new year! hope that this will be a better year for all of us.well,i will work hard for next semester. went back to look at my results again and i m really not satisfied. i spend too much time on other things that are not important. i know it myself. will not happen again.

tiring. always hear about the same story again and again. repeatingly itself like a machine. feel very unhappy inside. want to prove my stand,but not strong enough to do so. time is the only way to prove it.

feel kind of sianz this few days. cant explain why.



Monday, January 01, 2007

happy new year!

i just came back from malaysia. had an unpleasant trip. alot of things happened. i prefer being free.
看到很多人的真面目.妹说大人都很虚伪.好像是需要的,为了生存.有些人像是要把新郎的钱全吸干似的.有点恐怖. 是文化差异还是什么,有点看不惯某些人的行为. 原来朋友和同事两者之间真的有差别.

finally back to singapore. rushed to city hall for count down. hai again someone lied to me again. it doesnt really affect me,但是还是很想摇摇头.
and fireworks!! so nice!! after a year i m finally watching fireworks with the person i want. got 'suaned' by someone. but nevermind,i m happy.

the more u think,the more u doubt,the more you will feel unhappy. keep reminding myself. sometimes hate myself for thinking so much. life is simple but we people are lazy. we complain that life is bored,but will never take any effort in changing anything.
有些人往往只会羡慕别人,但从不看自己拥有的一切,从不珍惜. 太迟了. 什么是知足常乐? 我懂.
move on. i dont know how to express my feelings. dont make assumptions. i know it myself. there's nice people around. open your eyes. but even if there's, you will never appreciate them. did you ever appreciate what i did? idiot freak. move on!

i love you so much that i m afraid to lose you