Sunday, October 30, 2005

both of us again

max is cute!

tt gossip king liangkiat

lazy to upload more pics. haha

Friday, October 28, 2005

seeing him feelin sad,i feel so helpless. there was once tt i face e same prob as him. i wanna hlp,but i cant. dun wanna make him feel tt i haf a motive or somethin like tt. i noe e outcome actualli. wad he told others,i noe it. i accept it too. all i wan is tt he can treat me as a fren. cos i will always b here. actualli i m more silly den him. there was once i gt hurt,but i m able to cum out of it. cos i accept ppl's help. i trust my frens. rmb tt 3 yrs ago,i wanna hlp tis fren of mine to get out of his depression state. n it reali took 3 yrs. 3 yrs ago i tot he is fine,but den he disappeared again. everyone likes to avoid reality. lock ourselves up from e world. wad can i do now? can anyone tel mi how to b 'thickskin'?

i m reali unhappy.
cos "e greatest happiness is to see u being happy"



Tuesday, October 25, 2005

e weirdo me is back! forgot wad haf i been doin tis few days.
gt distracted abit last week,haiz is my fault. but now i think i m gettin myself back again. study study! ya... if it means to b urs,it will cum back to u. so... wait for my A lvl to end... n see wad'll happen after tt. most probably nth. but is ok actualli. no more heart attacks for me. i stil prefer a simple life to a dangerous life.
yday was a funny day for me. i gt irritated AGAIN by someone,mayb i juz haf no sense of humour or i juz cant stand his sense of humour? haiz i m like tt la... bad bad bad...hard to change. den chat wif those 'jerks' in our class. -_- sometimes reali miss sch. miss e days we all had together.
i miss hk food. a cafe is openin soon at kovan. haiz y didnt it open last yr or wad?
i miss LD days. haiz...

sunset @ Katong

Friday, October 21, 2005

disappointment?
ya... again... dun ask me wad happen n dun ask me y.
sometimes... being simple is e happiest...
dun wanna go beyond my world. i cant take any challenges outside.esp in tt type of world.
take it as nth haf happen. i'll b ok tml.



Friday, October 14, 2005

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

e highest level of love is to let go. let e one u love to wif e one he love. although is painful,but u will wish them all e best wif a smile. erm...tt's wad someone told me. i think i haf reach tt level. cos i m nt sad cos of them anymore. cis told me tt e me now is e one she knew last yr, i think tis is e real me. honestly i love myself so much now. cos i gain back wad i lost. i lost so much cos of makin a wrong choice. but luckily, cis n trans isomers r willin to accept me tis idiot. share chocolate cake wif me,punch fruits wif me. planning to pon sch on thurs n go out sing kbox! :D cis trans' concert!

fen told us bout her story. a small story of her relationship. n is amazing tt i preform e ability of cryin in 10sec again. i feel so touched. sometimes is better to hang on if both of them stil love each other,problem can b solved. it is so lucky to able to find e one u love,n he love u too. muz cherish tt.

if anyone wan mi to b happy,den u muz b happy too.
:D everyone pls b happy k?



Monday, October 10, 2005

i cant rmb wad's e reason of feelin unhappy. some things i try nt to care,nt tt i dun care,but i choose nt to. nt tt i cant infer,is i try nt to. everyone throw problems to me n let me solve it alone. they dunno tt i m scare of being alone. alone thinkin without seein when is e end. i love to think alot last time,but tis is nt a gd habit of life. i cant get any happiness. i wan to b happy. i dun wan to care bout others. but...

"e greatest happiness is to see others happy"

but no one is happy now. i hope tt everyone's happy. but wad can i do? i tot tt if i dun care dun show anythin everyone will b happier? i dunno wad others expect from me.

zhang shao han's cai bu tou... another nice song but my sis hate it. cos i keep replayin tis song. e lyric is meaningful to me. for some part of e song,it represent wad i m thinkin now.

to b happy anot is ur own choice. but if others r unhappy cos of u,den is different case.



Sunday, October 09, 2005

yday studied til 3am. n today while doin e test,i gt tis dying feelin. headache,gastric.... all types of stupid things. n i finish e paper at an amazing speed. cos i wanna take a nap. e tired feelin is so scary. i feel tt i m goin to faint at any moment. e worst thing is i vomit everyday after takin bus home. too tired,lack of slp n things like tt.

wish tt sch will end soon. but think of my frens,haiz... feel so bu she de. we punch fruits together,laugh together,scold ppl together,shop together... altho is onli a short 1 n half yr,but i can say tt my tis grp of frens r e best of best fren tt i noe. esp tt cis who hlp mi so much. ya.. frens can b forever.

i m reali lucky. i love myself alot now. many ppl cant get wad i haf,n i gt most of them. muz cherish e things i haf now. i m glad tt i made e rite choice. at least i m happier now. dun say tt i sound sad,cos i m nt anymore. :D i onli care for ppl who care bout me.





Saturday, October 08, 2005

i m goin to faint soon. went to harbourfront to study wif my beloved cis immediately after sch. seems to b veri hardworkin n indeed we r. but so tired. n today is friday. e best day of e week. so many ppl r at mac eatin plus tokin loudly. n e stupid both of us,gt a shock when someone pass by shoutin somethin. ya... a shock.
but anyway,harbourfront is my favourite place. from sec 1 til now. all those nice memories. but e most unforgettable one is e LD outin. it seems to b so long ago. but actualli is onli half a yr ago. i mis those times,when we used to sit together n sing n chat n suan each other. haiz. but impossible tt we will haf those days again. i rmb i haf tis feelin tt time,tt no matter how bad is life,there r stil things for u to cherish,there r ppl who r always wif me. so no matter how upset i m,i stil look forward to life.

A lvl is cumin! haiz... i wanna get into e same course as my beloved cis. i cant survive without cis. if nt there will b no one for mi to disturb. haha... i love u alot cis (i m not a les).

now i noe... i m weird... mayb i m nt human nt ger... but i stil love myself...



Friday, October 07, 2005

i love myself.
i haf a funny mum who loves to steal my pillow at nite.
i haf an artistic sis who loves to draw everyday.
i haf a lovely pretty cousin who talks loudly.
i haf many aunties who loves to play mahjong til midnite.
i haf a grp of frens who loves to 'punch' fruits.
i haf a grp of cis trans isomers who loves to pinch me.
i haf a fat n nice cat outside my hse slpin wif her tummy facing up.
i haf an irritant tt irritates me every nite on msn.
tellin mi things tt i m nt intested in n none of my business.

i love myself.
i love disturbing cis n trans.
i love to nag at ppl at hm.
i love to laugh at pregnant man doin titration.

i love myself.
:D



Wednesday, October 05, 2005

my phy sux.
my organic chem sux.
my gp paper 1 sux.
so wad m i good at?
so tired. having headache everyday.
let us offfff........

i wanna enjoy my life.
simple life without any qn.
i cant ask any qn relating to complicated prob.
i dun like to think for solution.
tis is wad i learnt from ahem.
if u dun think,u wont b worried.
u wont b scared.



Tuesday, October 04, 2005

y no one bother to ask me wad i wan?
when i nid ppl to b there,no one reply my sms except for him n her.
i wan tt person to b there. but nv will tt person appear.
i m so tired,
thinkin of wad others think.
but no one think for me.
did anyone ask if i m happy?
when i wan ppl to make mi happy, so many of u hide.
i m goin thru all nightmare alone.
when u feel lonely i m always here.
but when i look for u,u hide again n again.
i wan happiness. gif me.
ppl dun even show mi tt they care,
how m i suppose to noe it?
i assume tt u all dun care.

i reali wan happiness. n care. tt's all.



Monday, October 03, 2005

story 1:
A n B r frens.
A like C.
B dun like C.
but in e end,
B oso like C.

story 2:
D n E r frens.
D like F,
but F like E.
E dun like F,
so he rejected F.

F n C is e same person.
D n A is e same person.
all of them r frens.

C is nt a thing,
she dun wanna ppl to pass her ard like a present.
she haf feelings too.

sometimes e real faces of ppl r reali scary. is saddenin when ppl betray u,backstab u. worst is tt u treat them as ur fren. disappointed... but wad can i say? mayb a 'is ok' will do. better to take things easily. now i m takin things more lightly,i feel so much better.

when e worst thing happen,it onli means somethin better will appear. kan tou che le xin jiu hui shi qing lang de. avoidin problem is nt e way. but nt everyone haf e courage to face it. i can say i dun haf e courage. is easy to forgive,but hard to forget. when i recall wad had happened,suddenli i found tt it is a big joke. when u trust someone, make sure tt e someone is worth ur trust. too naive of me. wad r true frens? is someone tt i can trust. but... again n again.. u betray me. but nvm.. i m nt angry. u r stil my fren. :) but pls treat ur 'frens' wif ur whole heart.

human r e most scary creature on earth. ppl try to backstab u in order to gain wad they wan. scary. horrible. but do u believe in karma? i believe. hao ren you hao bao. so dun ever do things tt will hurt others. tt's wad i learn tis yr. e most impt lesson learnt in e worst yr of my life. but is ok... b positive.

i m stil waitin. for someone to speak up. n i hope to spend my xmas happily.
i wan my xmas present :)

i miss hk. i wanna go back. park island ocean park harbour centre... disney land!!! arghhhh.
i love hk.