Friday, June 30, 2006

i m so tired now. exploring photoshop the whole day. i saw people drawing human figures using photoshop,i want to learn too. so i tried to draw a human face. but it look like a pig in the end. a big pig nose. hmmm but u know my character,i dont give up so easily,so i continue drawing and heehee... finally a human face! not very nice but it is a human face! :D

i got new mattress. so happy!

hmm actually it looks very scary. and fake. one of my friend can draw a real girl. looks so real...

oh and this person i drew has weird/unbalanced eyebrow.... will improve it when i m not so tired.

do u think that people living in singapore are under a lot of stress? and because of this,they are doing things that are abnormal.

few months back,i saw this guy holding a knife,standing at the bus stop. he looked fierce. and from his appearance,u can judge that he will be going to do something weird. who will hold a knife (da cai dao) and stares at everyone he sees? the way he was holding the knife is...hmm how to describe it? just look like he will be going to kill anyone. obviously no one dare to stand near him. some of them even called the police.

yesterday,after meeting the isomers for dinner. i took mrt to toa payoh,wanted to take another bus back to my house. this guy was standing in the front,waiting for the same bus as me. when we got onto the bus,he sat somewhere far from me. there's not many people on the bus,after a while i saw him turning around a few times to look at me. and after that,he changed seat,to sit in front of me. dont know how to describe his expression. he looked as if there's some killers beside him,and may be he suspected that i m one of them. the way he looked at me is so scary. full of fear on his face. and on mine too. i called my mum,hoping that it will reduce my fear when chatting on phone. luckily,he alighted before me. and he still look at me with that face when he was alighting.

today,went to ntu for check up.and i was sitting at the last roll of the seats. there's a guy sitting on the other end of the roll. same thing happened,he keep looking at me. i was wearing jeans but he keep looking at my leg. i think normal people wont look at people this way. i mean stared. when u look at some strangers,and make some eye contact,u will feel a bit bu hao yi si.but these people i meet didnt feel that way. so i think they are a bit abnormal?

people are acting in a weird way. why?



Thursday, June 29, 2006

tuition today was tiring. i dont know why. just feel tired. keep looking at my watch and the kid found out that i was so eager to end today's tuition. but he dont want to let me off,after tuition,he took out his colouring book and colour pencils,hoping that i will colour the pictures with him. oh he is so cute,he is the only child. no one to play with because his parents are working. so i stayed back for a while to play with him. he asked me to fold a crane for him,and he wanted to give it to his mum. haha so cute. i was quite unhappy with his parents,because today i supposed to get my pay from them. but they are always hiding from me when i told them i want to get my pay TODAY. i spent so much money. on food on school thingy.

tomorrow. going to the far far end of singapore for some stupid check up. i feel like telling them that i m a normal human being,with my organs functioning so normally. i m so lazy to go there all the way just to have such stupid check up. ya this check up sounds stupid to me. eeek! u think everyone is staying at the west side? and got to pay them $20 for it. not a lot of money,but it is still my money! and yes tomorrow got to hand in FOC form,with $50. money again. i know i m lucky comparing to the other isomers. but haiz money is so important. :(

here is another boring story by nasty me.
guy D is my friend in secondary school. we used to talk a lot and we were quite close friends. everything sounds normal but one day,he suddenly sms me(and some other best friends of his) that he want to have his own time and privacy,he dont want us to chat with him or ask him about anything. at that time,many things happened and we knew that there's something wrong with him. we tried to help. but he refused to accept it. so one by one,we just leave him alone. and after that,he got well by his own,after locking himself up in his room for 4months. and he started to sms us again. we are like maids and slave. got to answer his call reply his sms no matter how busy. or may be it is me who is doing this. i thought he is lonely. he has no friends. i think i m wrong. his best friends ask me to ignore him,dont look for any trouble. but it is too late. for 3 years he has been disappearing/reappearing. disturbing everyone with his sms,asking us to call him. threatening me with some strong words.without appreciating what we did for him. he feels that he is the king,we slaves have to do what he wants. smsing all sort of weird and disgusting things to me when he was drunk. i thought,after 3 years he will be able to think properly,but what i got now is all this. calling us up when he is lonely. never ever think of how busy we are. and i m scared of him. mum asked me to stay away. he might do some weird things. is this called friendship? disappointed.

i just dont want to get killed by someone when i m still so young.



Tuesday, June 27, 2006

jiemin is back! so happy! went to the airport yesterday,just love the atmosphere at the arrival hall. people are gathering there to wait for their friends/relatives. everyone is smiling.
went out with the whole group of isomers today. all are present today. is jiemin's birthday! we really miss her alot. so glad that all the isomers are there today...love them so much! :D



Sunday, June 25, 2006

we miss cutie... today 2 of my neighbours asked how's our fat cat? we told them that she passed away. but she is so lucky,because everyone loves her! :D

Saturday, June 24, 2006

i spent the whole afternoon playing with photoshop. got to get myself prepared for school. but luckily,the things i will be doing will be fun. :D

and thanks for suggestions from gan duo fu. i've changed some things in my blog. may be things are still out of place,but i m tired to correct it today. lazy kid.

tuition tomorrow. i bought a gift for my student. hope he like it. heehee....



Thursday, June 22, 2006

my aunt's boyfriend came to s'pore for a meeting. some organisation invited him here to give a talk. and so they gave him a big big hotel room. so big and nice that he was also shocked.




Tuesday, June 20, 2006

so much better when there's friends around. just need a little encouragement. didnt have a good night sleep yesterday. and some agent called,forcing me to take up some assignments that i dont intend to take. but well. still a normal day.
i was thinking about the real me. i dont understand myself well. anyone can tell me the things that they understand about me?


jm is coming back soon! :D excited!

somehow feel lonely because some of my friends went back to camp. and others are busy with their own things. last week been going out so often. now got to get back to normal life. haiz.
so tired now. isomers can feel that i m happier after some thing. ya i m. weird? i cant explain why.

dont fall for someone just because of her/his looks. she/he looks good dont mean she/he suits u. and dont ever complain to anyone that she/he is not what you want when things happen. everyone must listen to you and do things in your way? well no. and dont tell others that she/he is not what you want. you are the one who choose it in the first place.



Sunday, June 18, 2006

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........................sobs.............................
the girl is not me!!!!!!!!!!!!! sobs.................................................................................
Ben with another girl...............

ok... it is just a picture taken from a show.

haha... imagine i m the girl... heeheeheeheehee!!!!!!!!!!!

ya little imagination can make me feel happy for the whole day!

Saturday, June 17, 2006

when i saw his friendster page,i feel something weird. feel something when i saw girls writing testimonial for him,saying that he told everyone no one wants him.
i think this is the first time feeling this way. regret what i did.

went out with fen and ping today. i was early because of tuition. so i bought a drink at mac and stone. while stoning,i saw people from S12. but not really my friends. and after that...haha i saw eric. he was on his way to play basketball with jk/ck/zc. so so qiao!i miss damai. so fun so childish.
another super qiao thing is about tuition. last wednesday i cancelled tuition for some other things. and i went down to chinatown with ks and lk. wahaha. guess what. today the kid's dad ask me why i went shopping on wednesday and didnt come for tuition. singapore is small but it is too -_- because i was at chinatown for a short while only. accompany ks to buy thread. what is this?? and i wore the same shirt today. ok but i told them that i will change the date to another day. his parents dont want. so is not my fault? hhhmmm i dont know. feel bad and feel unlucky. dont have the 'tuition luck'. but is ok. i m optimistic. :D

june is not a good month for the virgo people. i believe in this because it says that from july onwards,i will be very lucky. no harm believing in good things.
someone laughed at me because i m not feminine enough. hmm well. i m just a little boy. but today i had a great day trying out nail polish. stupid colours that dont suit me.

just trying to be funny

purple i love purple

Friday, June 16, 2006

haven been going out everyday. yesterday i went for an interview. but dont think they will want me because i have to start school soon. and for about 3 days,i have been hanging out with fat and uncle. they are waiting for the posting results,which will be coming out tomorrow.
today watch a movie. thought it will be scary,and i hope to find some excitement. but in the end it is a total disappointment to me. because it is only disgusting. not scary enough. the graphics and animation are nice. fat guy said that we dont appreciate the movie because we've not played the game before. seeing game being converted into movie is fascinating. that's what he said. may be ba. oh there was this couple who brought fruits into the cinema. and the girl made so much comments (silly comments) about the movie. and she made so much noise with their plastic bags. i think that's funny. the way she talks. everyone in front was turning around to see whose voice does that belongs to.
after that,house of the dead AGAIN. hmmm... the 5th time i think. in the 3 days. it is interesting actually.

feel that i will be alone soon. the school send a lot of things to us. and i have to do so many things alone. trans is so caring,she told me that if i have any problem,i can approach her sis or ws. so far,dont have any problem. but it is just the feeling. the isomers are going for their school tour. hmm. i will remember what ting told me. i m living for myself. not for others. should go ahead and aim for things that i want. ya... i should. well i m thinking too much about the new school. everything will be ok right? i think so.



Thursday, June 15, 2006

change my video again.
a song by comic boys... "qiu ai fu ke ban"
i love this song. haha... it is an old song. when xu jun hao is still a member of comic boys. their 1st album. like wang chuan yi the most. haha... n i dislike that an jun can. wahaha!
same fate as BAD,disband... -_-



Monday, June 12, 2006

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yRLprAJLucI

wahaha! Ben is soooooo cool!
most girls will prefer peng yu yan right? but i still love my Ben!
see he is so man so cool so handsome so cute so charming so................................... :DDDDDDDDDD


is she cute???? cis' niece! we love her... :D



Saturday, June 10, 2006

lots of not-so-good things happened. sometimes feel so lost. but well,i m the type who will wake up fast. glad that i have friends who will stay by my side when i m upset. and never give me nagging. they understand me so well. they know that i recover fast. feel so much better with them around.

yesterday went out with 3isomers,1uncle and 1fat guy. went to city hall area to have lunch. at first seems like 3 isomers talking among ourselves,and the 2 on their own. guys love to talk about things in army,which we dont understand. but after that,we talked about pw. although pw really gave us a hard time,but we actually enjoyed it. especially for our group. fen and ping left early,so went to ps with the 2 botaks. they went to arcade. wow i saw a guy who put in so much money on one machine. the house of dead. he loves attention i think? so many people including us are watching him. he looks cool! he looks cool when he concentrate on killing the zombies. but he is not that pro actually. that's what uncle and fat guy told me. honestly fat is more pro.
then we went to spotlight to look for some materials. sit there(on the floor)for half an hour,just chatting about things,some different views between guys and girls. had dinner at swensen. expensive and not nice. played a game and lost,got forced to eat up a mixture of sauce. eee. disgusting.

it is so much better with friends around. cherish everyone everything.



Thursday, June 08, 2006

i went back to SR with ade and weishan. rainy day. we went there in sr uniform. we miss the uniform. not the school. played basketball with them. learn alot of things today. :D

M2-3

Our classroom! M2-3

our sleeping/eating/slacking/copying/studying place

we used to peep into the lab. the white door with 2 circular window

squash court. haiz... WAKE UP

miss those days.....

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

i really got myself into deep trouble. started to feel that i m such a big liar. of cos i dont feel good now.

and idiots are comparing me with another person. what the hell do they want? compare for what? ask me not to get affected. ok well. not now. trouble and u people adding on to my trouble and i got to face u all with a big smile? no way. i gave a stupid black face thru out. i m just myself. why compare me with others???????



Tuesday, June 06, 2006

i m in trouble. i dont care.
going SR on saturday. to get back my A level cert. which is full of 'Cats'. haiz. and got to go back to SR! ade and me are planning to wear SR uniform. we miss school days,we miss the uniform. but not the school.

insomnia. went to bed at 2am. but i m still awake when it is 6am. haiz. what is happening to me? thinking too much again. about everything. borrowed a book from library. about human having dreams at night. a very interesting book which answers to my questions. but hard to read because it is not in simplified chinese. and words are super small. got to force myself to read the whole book. exercise brain cells.

life is smooth recently. may be that's what i want.
sometimes we are just blind. small things reflect the personality of someone. but we cant see it from ourselves. there are so many kinds of people in this world,dont ever try to change someone. jiang shan yi gai,ben xing nan yi. ( dont know if i write correctly)



Sunday, June 04, 2006

Jolin Tsai is really so attractive. i m so attracted. she gives us,the girls, HOPE. pretty face,almost perfect figure,high EQ n IQ (look at the way she reply to those stupid jay chou related questions). oh my gosh. i just love her. i want her dancing diva cd........................

went to tiong bahru,chinatown,clarke quay with mummy. there was a lucky draw at tiong bahru plaza. guess what,mummy got 5 chances for the draw, and she got 5 gifts which are the same (is a sure win lucky dip). 5 packets of milk. hahaha. cutie mum! oh i bought cross stitch and also 2 files. dinner at lao di fang again. nice food nice atmosphere. :D i love mummy! promise to bring her to take the boat ride next time.

was chatting with uncle ks yesterday night. he was saying that ns make him stupid. listening to command everyday, no need to think. poor uncle. and i told him to borrow books to read,in case his brain gets rusty. honestly this long holiday really make us stupid. i doubt that i can adapt to school life again. now i m digging out things to do. re do tys and stuff like that. and most importantly,draw sketch colour...

want to organise class gathering. all i hope is most of them will be able to make it. dont know why such things happen. we are all 19,20 years old,should be more understanding right? why is there so much misunderstanding? or may be we just cant accept them and they cant accept us? but anyway we are just classmates. dont need to make such a big fuss about things.

about understanding. i believe that how u treat someone,he or she will treat u in that way too. so dont complain who changed and who is not good to u,must reflect the way u treat him or her. cant please everyone. that's the fact. what to do if misunderstanding continues? for me,i will try to ignore. if the person dont trust u or anything about u,then there's no need to continue anything.

i like my tuition kid. he is so lonely at home,and he asked me to stay and play with him. so cute.



Friday, June 02, 2006

just a conversation b/w the girls. no offence.

the girls were talking about this topic about chicken chop.
imagine u are going out with a person in the opposite gender. both of u are VERY hungry,and u all decide to have your dinner at the food court. and in most cases,the guy will help the girl to buy what she wants to eat. take chicken chop as an example.

for guys. in this case,both of u are really very hungry. and u can eat up 2 plates of chicken chop on your own. and this girl friend of yours can eat up 1 plate on her own,or may be 1 and a half. so how many plates will u buy?
1. 2 plates,one for her one for urself.
2. 2 plates,but half for her,1.5 for urself.
3. 3 plates. one for her,2 for urself.
4. 3 plates. 3 plates to share equally.

think carefully,which choice will u choose?

for girls.
1. if he buy 2,u will only eat 1 of them
2. if he buy 3,u will only eat 1 of them
3. if he buy 2,u let him eat half of your share
4. if he buy 3, u eat 1.5 of them

surprisingly. most guys will choose 3,but in fact will do what is stated in choice 2.
most girls (for the isomers), choice 2 or 4. but we will ask the guy if he want to try our share. that's respect. most guys eat faster than a girl,and guys,while waiting for the girl,what will u do? do u wait for her? or help her eat up her share? the isomers will hope that the guy will wait instead of eating up ours. because we are really hungry. if guys u are hungry too,buy the amount of food that will satisfy u. dont eat up the girl's share.
and girls(may be for us only), tell the guy how much u can eat. i think i can eat up 1.5 plates. but usually i will eat 1 plate only,we girls will share abit with the guys,but we still have to eat till we full right? no use acting in front of a guy,because in the future,the real u will appear. girls,if the guy eat up your share without your permission,then he is not a guy.

there's a line for everything. like a sofa that have 3 seats. normally it is one for the guy,one for the girl. that's what u think. but it is sometimes 2 for the guy. and 1 of girl. i mean sometimes. for 5 of u reading this,i think only 1 will do this?
most of us (the isomers) feel that there's should be a basic respect. we respect u,and we hope u will respect us too. many say that it is a must for the guy to treat the girl for their 1st date. can guys accept this nowadays? i dont mind paying for my share,but... it is abit too much if i have to treat a guy, under no special cases like any occasions. not a high expectation. if i were a guy,i dont mind treating my dear.

girls. if u are considering any guys now,test him with the chicken chop thingy?

i enjoy being single. may be one day,i will really choose to become a nun. achieve peace. a routine life. an oragnised nice life. a higher level of life. oh ya,i got attacked and i m injured. bleeding non stop yesterday.



Thursday, June 01, 2006

met up with the isomers yesterday. went for a movie,a nice one. miss them so much. especially trans,so long never see her. i m happy,the isomers agree with the choice i made. i m not that young anymore,got to choose things that suits me best. life is short,dont make urself unhappy. hk trip is cancelled. mainly because of the lack of money. and for them,lack of sponsership? but is ok,we still have lots of chances.

we cant please anyone.when we did nothing wrong,there'll still be people who hate us,or think that we are doing the wrong things.live for ourselves? or try to please most people? which will u choose? may be we just need the support of important people.


Da Vinci code is nice.
jolin is sexy.