rainy day. i hate it.

went swimmin wif CIS, but bout 15mins later,it start to rain. n no choice we gt to wait for it to stop,but it didnt stop. n we juz wasted our $0.50... n i didnt get to swim. sob.... rainy day juz spoil my day like tt.... after tt i went hm... took 155... n think alot. realise tt 4 more days is 19th july. stil rmb wad happen last yr. bad memory. an ending but also a start for mi. tt day... someone curse mi tt i will haf my retribution 1 day. "he wont love u,he'll leave u". it came true. is tt retribution? or juz fate? erm... i dunno... but no matter wad,is all over... let it b a history n start a new chapter of life. nv look back to e past failure. it will make u feel more miserable. who will wan tis to happen? i can say... i reali dun wan it...

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my mood is like shit now. giddy tired... everythin bad u can think of. now i reali haf to learn to face it all by myself. even if i faint on street,i haf to get back on my feet by myself. no one will ever hlp mi if i myself dun wanna hlp. i wan to b independent. for e whole of last yr,i was too dependent on someone. no one expected anythin to happen. now i had no choice but to get up n hlp myself. i reali wan. i wan to b happy. i wan to love myself again.

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i m foldin my "talkin cranes" again. my secret,happiness,sadness is all inside them.

:)

da mao blogged at 12:32 PM