Friday, May 12, 2006

not in good mood today. think of something bad again. cant help having the feeling again and again. went to orchard road with mum just now. saw so many people wearing those t shirts and pants. and the specs. and the adidas bag. all these are too common to be seen. nothing special about it. then went to toa payoh for dinner. the same food court and the same stall. because the chicken rice is nice. so many things came back to my mind again. 1 year is gone. wo yi wei wo hao le. and i thought of what lion said 'people care for people who care about themselves'. no one is going to help me unless i help myself. problem now is how? try not to think. i m trying everyday.

it will be irritating if i repeat this again. and i m so irritating. we all are unhappy inside. always saying things like hope we will be happy and all those things. but are we happy now? i choose to be happy but i cant do it. so disappointed with myself.