Saturday, July 08, 2006

today. i thought we will have a fun time at sentosa. but who knows things are really not under our control. we suggest to meet 9.30am at harbour station. and same thing,only 3 of us reach there in time. the other 2 isomers were bringing their dogs. so they will meet us at sentosa instead of harbour front. to our surprise,both of them didnt contact each other about the meeting place and time. and the 3 of us are like control station,have to pass message from one isomer to another. honestly,i m tired of organising. i believe in give and take,sometimes people just depend on one another toooo much till they take things for granted. we were a bit unhappy at that time.we went in sentosa and try to find a good spot. and only after about 2 hours,then we saw the 2 other isomers with their dogs. we set the time to meet at 9.30am,because we were afraid that there are too many people. but the person who suggested the meeting time was late for so long. all we hope is that people will appreciate what we did. i was feeling ok when they came. but... 1 isomers didnt even apologize for being late. while jm say so many times of sorry. we understand her.she is busy with her things(and 2 dogs). i m not particular about that word 'sorry',but it is the attitude. just feel -------- when she didnt even show a sense of urgency and feeling sorry. m i expecting too much from people??? all i want,is respect. we did things for people,we hope they will appreciate. and i hope there's at least some effort put in when we organise things. lazy or what,i just feel so tired about all these. i know cis is tired about it too. we can see it. cis is always planning outing for us,and ya 2 of us dont feel good to let her handle all these alone,so we help. but now. all the 3 of us are tired.

i know some of u who are reading this will ask me to take it easy,and dont be so ji jiao. ya i know,i m just tired about it. i think,there's a limit to everything. give and take too. cis has tolerate it for so long. honestly i feel wei qu for her. i m direct i know,but may be it is really time to show it le. cis,i m tired,i know u are too.fen is tired too. put yourself into our shoes. we are just too tired.

but anyway,dinner time at harbour front was much better. the 3 of us went to mac and ate ice cream. started to enjoy the time chatting with them. after that,met the 3 guys. ks is getting fitter,max is still as tall,lk is still a fat officer. but cis was quite low. sometimes,things are not under our control,and it is so unexpected.we should take it easy. at least,there are still true friends. then the guys left early. so 3 of us continue shopping. just a simple gathering,but can feel the bond between us. that's what i m happy about. i always thought that if u are good to someone,he/she will treat u in the same way. but may be not.

another thing is,sometimes i will write so many unhappy things on my blog,it doesnt mean that i m unhapy all the time.i just need a space to vent my anger and unhappiness. a blog dont really show everything about me. and if u have any comments about my view,can talk to me about it,most likely it is ok. but if u hate me that much and think that what i post here are rubbish,then please dont read it.there's really no point reading my blog when u disagree to everything i said,or hate me,think that i m unreasonable and nasty. why make yourself so unhappy when u read my blog? so it is better not to read it. just my view.

i m not very frustrated/angry/irritated/sad/unhappy. i m just tired.