Wednesday, July 05, 2006

working very hard on my drawing tis few days. got nothing to do in the afternoon,when my mum is at work,friends are doing their own things. cant be lazy anymore,feel that i have the need to work REALLY HARD for my future.
mum's friend called to ask about me. about where i will be studying at and things like that. is her habit,or it is many people's habit. hoping to find out things from my mum,and to show off her kid's results blah blah. mum is quite irritated but she didnt show. she asked if i got into any bio/chem/phy courses. my mum act like she doesnt know anything. not being nasty,but some people are like that. wanting to compare and to show off. the best way is to act like we dont know anything. just feel tired.

tired of misunderstanding. cant please everyone. or change how people look at me. especially people who dont know me well. it is quite sad to hear about the assumptions made by others.cant blame them having different views about me. no one is perfect. that's what i think. i cant do everything people expect me to do. and soon these people will start to dislike me. cant explain it. hard to please people. hard to prevent misconceptions. who knows exactly how i think? it is tiring having to explain everything. leave it the way it is and get complains?

school is starting soon. i want to spend more time with my mum now. i just love her soooo much. she understands me best. and i want to give her the best in everything. 4-5 years.