Sunday, December 17, 2006

went bedok to have lunch with jing and rome they all. again... brought back a lot of memories. yes bedok-phobic. feel kind of scared when i look at the HDB flats in bedok,north to be more specific. to me,things linked to places. places evoke reality. somehow i think i m still 'unstable',like what my da ge da said. how long do i need to recover? but...it is in the process of recovering.
still dont dare to go certain places. may be i m just avoiding. but when i think of the consequences,i doubt myself again. feel useless sometimes. wanted to get rid of such phobia,and trying hard to. never thought that it will be so hard. but i know that i cant possibly stay at the same spot forever.

saw a lot of photos on a website. this photographer went to some abandoned places in singapore. me,the very curious kid always wanted to go such places to take photos. i mean when i m still brave and daring. may be in the future will have the chance? but really feel that they are cool.
虽然不可以亲身经历，不过照片就可以带我们进入禁地！

still curious about depression stuff. because it is so damn serious that it will kill someone if not handled properly. hmmm got to 声明 ,i m a happy little shortie ok? although a bit emotional.
read a bit on this Schizophrenia. Psychiatry. Also called dementia praecox. a severe mental disorder characterized by some, but not necessarily all, of the following features: emotional blunting, intellectual deterioration, social isolation, disorganized speech and behavior, delusions, and hallucinations. (taken from dictionary.com :D)

so never call people who commit suicide silly. you never know what is the real reason behind it. ya i m talking about you biggish jerk. and ya,still dont irritate me. who like to be irritated? so let me off.

somehow feeling emotional now. after seeing the photos. reading about people who suffer from schizophrenia-hmmm depression. let's not be too intelligent and famous.

should spend more time doing useful research,read more TIME magazine (for gp last time,but i never touch them), do more useful stuff instead of surfing friendster to look at people's photos.
-__- real bad.